Wishing and Hoping.

It's my first blog. Ever since reading Justin's blog about "moving on" I decided that at random times I need to just blurt out how i feel. Blogging can be honestly about anything, but it's pretty much special when your at your highest of your highs or lowest of your lows. At the moment, I'm pretty neutral but hey why not give it a shot. So here it goes:

I'm moving on. Yes, Justin you have inspired to start talking about moving on. In all honesty, I'm still a child. It's hard to look at your four years of high school and think about how well you matured or not. Sure I matured in studying ethics and definitely relationships, but as a person can I say that I'm an adult. I'm eighteen years old, but do I really have the potential to pick the next president. I don't. I wake up and the first thing I do is go on facebook. "How mature Mae." Same old routine over and over again. I wish I had a job, but I don't commit on looking for one. Built inside me is some courage, some drive to get me places but I'm so overwhelmed with fear that I'm just frozen. How do I prepare myself for this thing called college? Step by step is all it takes. I'll make it eventually but its going to be tough. I'm not going to change my hilarious-self, but the thoughts of staying the same gotta go. We're growing up and this is what we all got to do some day. My day is starting now :).

Friendships are forever. Leaving high school, I finally found out who my true friends are. Those friends who are willing to stand your stupidity or willing to drive 40 miles just to sleep over or those who stay up online with you talking about plans. I could honestly say that the friends who I have brought with me from grammar school to high school, I could carry these friendships for a lifetime. People search all their lives to find these so called "perfect" friends, but somehow it all fell in place for me. Sure they are all girls, but there are friends who you're born with. You know they exist but you actually have the time to let it developed. It certainly developed with certain people. Sure you have these people from high school you spent good times with and sure they have potential to be "best friends" but its not for a fact that they'll live up to their potential. The friends I've known for over 14 years are who I can truly believe are my best friends. They are certainly people who I can grasp on to the memories with and who can lend a helping hand.

So, my first blog has ended. I gave it a try. I would love to talk about deeper stuff about emotions/love but i'll save it for next time. Enjoy what you read and there will be more.

ps. thanks justin carl ortuoste for making me inspired :)